Hope ain't a bad thing at all...

Sometimes all you are left with is hope. And thank God for that. A light always exsists...if u let it... remember the main character of 'shawshank redemption'? hope kept him alive for 19 years in hell. It is keeping hundreds and thousands alive across the world. Even when we think we have lost all hope, something remains wrapped around our heart beats...telling us that maybe there is still time..this feeling dies only with our heartbeat. there is a certain bond between dreams and hope. I like to think that dreams are also a kind of hope...that is where the feeling of making them come true comes from. Mothers conceive us in hope, we live in hope, we die in hope. It is our very own little magic that we all own. Remember sometimes all we are left with is...HOPE.

তুমি আসবে বলে তাই...

...আমি স্বপ্ন দেখে যাই কিন্তু।  ultimately কি হবে? এতগুলো বছর ধরে তো স্বপ্নই দেখে গেলাম...তুমি এলে কি? নাহ...অবশ্য কখনো আসবে বলে কথাও দাওনি...তাই তোমায় দোষও দেওয়া যায়না। infact তোমার আসার স্বপ্নও তুমি দেখতে বলনি। সেটাও আমারি দোষ। কিন্তু কি করব বল? কিছু একটা আশা নিয়েই তো মানুষ বাঁচে। আমার সেই বাঁচার আশাটা তুমি, তোমায় ঘিরে...তোমায় নিয়ে। কিন্তু যাকে নিয়ে এতকিছু সেই তুমি টা যে কে তা আমার আজও জানা হল না। আর কটা বছরই বা আছে আমার হাতে তোমার আশা করার জন্য? sorry...i dnt have much time left to wait for you. অবশ্য আমি জানি তুমি আর আসবেও না। আসবার হলে এতদিনে এসে যেতে।
 নিজের উপরেই রাগ হয়। আবার ভয়ও হয়...এত বৃথা রাগ, এত কষ্ট নিয়ে বাঁচবটা কী করে? কিচ্ছু কি করা যেত না এই কাল্পনিক আমি আর তুমির জন্য? একটা কিছু হয়ে গেলেই ভাল হত। এভাবে চিরকাল তোমার আসার আশা তো করে যেতে হত না আমায়...



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তারই সাথে পথ চলে...

Broke my leg

I was returning from my Spanish class, was crossing the road, there was mud on the divider. I slipped!.for the 1st time in my life.....I broke a bone!. NEW EXPERIENCE (though not excellnt.) Had tyo stay in the hospital for a night. Now home, have much time in my hands. Can finish unfinished businesses at home. BUT I cant move. Mom says this happend to me becos i kept whinning for a holiday. She says nw i have it. O cm'on! i need help to even reach the toilet!. And man does it hurt!

learning a language

learning a language in which u do not speak can be a pain. First of all if u dnt get to use it u dnt get enough practice, then in a tight work shcedule u  can not get proper time to study, next when people hear that you are into learning a new language they constantly nag you to say something or translate something in it (:-@).I mean you're the one who's gonna write a love letter in that language for your ignorant friend by which he will impress his girlfriend, people will search google and find out sentences in that language and ask you the meaning to judge your abilities and then there are exams where you will find yourself absolutely clueless! Ouch! still going for that spanish of french classes admition? you better be ready, i told you wat follows. but ya at the end of the day it adds something nice to your CV.
Hasta La Vista
;)

Oops! i did it again!

I amaze myself sometimes. No, I amaze myself all the time by doing this over and over again. I mean someone up there has given me all the signals that this does'nt work for me! but I...i don't know how I do this & still live to tell the tale. I think i need to meet God in person and have a chat on this issue. I mean how can I possibly care so much about other people when so few care bout me! with a nightmare past I should have become more cautious with myself by now! maybe i'm just too stupid to understand. But then again I'm so completely rational, practical, solve others' problems, yet when comes to me again I do the same stupid mistake. I try to care about people fully aware of how shelfish they can turn out to be and make a mess of myself and my emotions again. Somebody gave me a nice piece of advice the other day 'emotions should be killed'! ya right! (that too at a time when the stupid me has just started to be emotional bout him). I wish he also advised me with the weapon. There's a problem with me, I'm overflowing with emotions, just hope I had a stopcock somewhere. I just spoil evething by being myself! (a little As Good As It Gets) .